the best lesson

One of the hardest
lessons I have ever learned
was the one thing that
left me broken inside.

That lesson approached
in an unexpected way.
I knew not what it was…
a lesson in disguise.

That lesson came from hurt,
came from not listening,
came when it was all done…
when my eyes weren’t mine.

That lesson left me feeling
far too much than I could bear,
feeling like nothing was left…
like I still had everything to hide.

One of the very best
lessons I have ever learned
was that I could love someone
even if they couldn’t be mine.

too much

When is it all too much?
When is it never enough?

Where is it perfect?
Where is it insanity?

What could hurt so bad?
What could leave you in want?

Who could revel in it?
Who could bear it?

Why is it never enough?
Why can’t enough ever be enough?

 

a little leap

 

People step, sometimes run.
When them do, it’s typical
to see what’s in front of them all.

Skip one step, dance on your toes,
remember long after but forget to go
to what you can’t see.

Take a ___ of faith,
a ___ over that treacherous
river and ___ across that mountain.

When you ____ , you find
and see what’s on the other side.
A ___ is the freedom to not hide.

Improper Alignment

Merry Christmas, he said
walking by with a nod.
I laugh and say it back,
under snow and cloud.

That’s what it looks like…
wintertime, I mean.
The snow is falling down
but we are due soon for spring.

I often marvel at Mother Earth
and that prankster Father Time,
wondering time and time again
why they sometimes don’t align.

not worthy

You’re not worthy
Of my love
But I love you anyway

You made choices
I could never be proud of
But I love you anyway

You never consider
What others need
But I love you anyway

I’m not worthy
To place judgement
And yet you love me anyway

How to make it…

“All you have to do is play a cute and lovable hooker to get paid $20 million dollars to be in a movie!”

~ RaShea, about Julia Roberts during the Academy Awards

I hate It

— From 10 Things I Hate About You

c is for comfort

she made me find myself.
she cracked me out of my shell
so i could experience things better.

she never fails to listen,
never fails to make me laugh
and never fails to share with me.

she always makes me comfortable.
she can trust that i’m always there.
she is one of the best things to me.

she’s the one i’ll never let go of

outcue

let’s talk about time travel
so you see something
then you don’t
you expect one thing
then get another

maybe there’s a black hole
perhaps a missing line
might be a new story
or even just an ending
that makes no sense here

there’s no way to rewind
but fast-forward is simple
take a gigantic bite
of nothing to swallow
why even try to bother

Don’t Look

Let it go when I look at you…
Seems impossible right?

I don’t even look and yet
it’s like it’s always you
I think write about.

Distractions like work
can keep it at bay
but as soon as they are
gone, I see the whole.

Don’t look but there’s no chance
to not look away
from the crash that’s happening.

A hole in the pavement you always
never forget to fall into.

Look away and you’ll never know.